I have only purged twice and have regretted both times. The decision to throw out all my female belongings in an attempt to remove Jenny from my life, came out of a desperation to be a “normal male” and try to conform to how my body is built. Those were dark periods, during a point … Continue reading The Desperate Act of Purging.
When I finally told my wife about my crossdressing and Jenny, during the conversation she asked “Why?” At first I did not understand what she was asking, so I think I answered something about having this inbuilt drive to express myself as female. She interrupted my monologue and asked “Why are you like this?” “Why … Continue reading Is There an Answer To WHY?
I added a guide to MTF hormones on the links page and it made me think about the Gender Variance Spectrum. The definition they use on this page is " We use “MTF” as shorthand for a spectrum that includes not just transsexuals, but anyone who was assigned male at birth and who identifies as … Continue reading The Spectrum Between Marcia and I
I think we all know the logical answer to this, which is as soon as possible before that problem escalates and become unmanageable. Sort it out early and hopefully a solution can be found. The question behind the question is "How can you ask for help when you don’t know that you need it?" … Continue reading When should you ask for help?
I recently added a "USEFUL & INTERESTING LINKS" page to this blog. I think I added it a bit too early as the few people that have visited it, would have found a rather naked and unuseful page.....Sorry....... HOWEVER..... Hopefully the content I have just added makes this page more relevant and slowly it will … Continue reading Content Fixed… I Hope
A package arrived in the mail for Jenny last Monday. It was one I was really looking forward to, as I wanted it to signal a break in this Covid drought. It was a selfish present to Jenny, as I was rewarding myself for putting her life on hold. I am hopefully thinking that this … Continue reading A Package For Jenny.
In 1971, during my high school days, the Sidney Kubrick’s move “A Clockwork Orange” was released. (Wow, that’s 50 years this year, so I suppose it’s now a VINTAGE movie.) It was a violent movie that was considered disturbing, challenging and very controversial. I must admit I did not go see it straight away, as … Continue reading Pavlov’s Dogs Meets A Clockwork Orange.
My wife has always said that the "Christmas Miracle" in our house is that everyone who attended our Xmas celebrations got on harmoniously or actually turned up. Which, funny enough is so true. I'm not saying that our collective families are dysfunctional and don't get on, it's just that certain members on my wife's side … Continue reading The Miracle of Christmas.
I would like to wish everyone a truly peaceful and wonderful festive season. May YOU, your special loved ones and families feel safe, LOVED and contented. I hope you can take time off to experience the season for what it is, a chance to give, enjoy life, feel love and consolidate the past year. Merry … Continue reading Wishing You All A Fulfilling & Peaceful Festive Season.
I suppose this is the season that, for me brings out all the ghosts of Christmases Past, Present and the Future. Like in the Dickens Book, "A Christmas Carol", I am sure we are all haunted by what was, what is and what life could have been. No way am I suggesting that we are … Continue reading Ghosts of Christmas Past, Present & Future